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[MDT]

It is isn't it @BlueBay

Very hard for many. I am considering a switch. But it'll take time.

Really not good today but getting on by as usual

[BlueBay]

Can you go home early @MDT 

[MDT]

Luckily we may be able to as the workload is smaller today it seems so have to wait and see @BlueBay
But other than that maybe not. Idk.

Hopefully I get a better sleep tonight. I think I probably will.

I don't care about any of this crap. It's boring and tedious. I'm sorry to complain like this but it's true. It's a start so that's something good about this job. But I'm ready for something else.

I feel sad and depressed inside today

[BlueBay]

trigger warning - 

@MDT @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Maggie @Molliex @Angels333 @Faith-and-Hope @Owlunar 

I'm watching tv snd all of a sudden the flashbacks of my abuse is here 

I am shaken by this 

how can this happen?

i used to hide under my doona 

I remember everything 

no go away I don't want to 

get away from me 

I wasn't even safe in the toilet 

over snd over again 

it happened 

get off 

😢😢😢😢

GET OFF ME!!

[Jynx]

Hey @BlueBay I'm so sorry you're experiencing this right now. We are here if you need 

[outlander]

sending love @BlueBay I know how hard flashbacks can be
does anything usually help at all?
im so sorry that happened to you. I was abused in the past 2-several times it happened so I understand.

[BlueBay]

@Jynx @outlander 

I can't do this 

I was only a child 

a tiny little girl 

I need to run 

I can't do this 

it hurts too much 

I can't close my eyes 

why now 

just go away 

leave me alone 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Sitting with you @BlueBay  .... 💙💙💙

[outlander]

@BlueBay I was a young teen when it happened to me. it isn't your fault and never will be.
What normally helps you when these flashbacks happen?

[BlueBay]

I don't know @outlander  i can't think straight 

i just want to go to sleep but I can't