Oscillation between two mind sets

[creative_writer]

I’m scared and confused

[tyme]

Hey @creative_writer ,

What's happening for you at the moment? I hear you are scared and confused.

[creative_writer]

@tyme, I feel stupid for being triggered by marriage talk. There has been a lot of talk. My trauma makes it hard for me to feel comfortable with the idea of romantic relationships and have never tried pursuing them. I’m so scared. I’ve been hurt too much

[tyme]

Are you about to phone someone at this time? 

Lifeline 13 11 14?

Sometimes, getting it out might be helpful @creative_writer . Or will writing poetry help at this time?

I'm so sorry you are hurting.

[creative_writer]

@tyme, I think talking on the phone would be a good idea, I just don’t think I have the energy right now. Maybe writing might be a better option. SANE is also my preferred helpline, I’ll be doing uni 9-5 Tom, it would have to be after then. It will depend on whether
I feel up to it Tom

[tyme]

Please take care @creative_writer . I'm sorry you felt so triggered tonight. You are doing very well.

I recognise it is not easy for you at all.

[creative_writer]

@tyme, I think I’m going to go to bed soon, extremely exhausted and the week starts Tom. Goodnight, I’ll see you around 😊

[tyme]

I'm heading off shortly too. Just to let you know, the week has already started and you've made it through the Sunday 🙂 Good on you @creative_writer . I know it hasn't been easy, but let's count your wins 🙂

Hugs, tyme

[Zoe7]

Hey gorgeous @creative_writer I can see you had a bad night last night 😢 I hope today is better for you Hon. Sending you a big hug and a whole lot of love 💕

Here for a while if you are about and want to chat more about what is happening for you.

@tyme 💚

[creative_writer]

Hi @Zoe7, I hope today was better.

I’m doing better than last night, I feel so embarrassed for having these fears. I can’t help it. I’ve been shut down before which has reinforced the shame. It’s like I’ve done something wrong