14th year house bound

[hiddenite]

Sorry Jacques I'm just really scared. Is it ok if I sit for awhile, I've been shaking all day

[Jacques]

 am scared for you too my angel, i am worried this will do more harm than good, whatever the outcome, i will be here for you.

Please Karen, share my sleeping bag and hot water bottle.

[hiddenite]

Thanks j I appreciate it.

[hiddenite]

I'm sorry I don't seem to have the words tonight, being backed into  a corner and no way out

[Jacques]

Oh my angel, i know the feeling of being backed into a corner, i have lived my whole life like that.

It is ok Karen, i will do the talking, hhhmmmmm. how about an animal story?

The neighbours across the road have soem mag pie's nesting in the tree, every morning and every afternoon he gives them some mince.  Of a morning she lands on his ute and sings away until he comes out to give her brekkie, the same with dinner, she even sits beside him while she eats.  it is so beautiful

[Jacques]

Karen, is your mother, father, brother or sister offering any help or support?

I do hope they wake up and support you some more, i feel so lucky to have some supportive family.

Karen, have you told the girls yet?, maybe break it to them slowely, let them know mum is getting some help, just like them with their psychatrist. Karen, you are so brave accepting the admission to hospital, i could not do it, even the thought makes me shake.

I will support you Karen, you will not be alone, are you allowed access to a computer?

[hiddenite]

I've told my mum, she said all I'm doing is hurting the girls.she will look after them while I'm in hospital.

I won't say anything to the girls until Wednesday.

I will be able to take my phone with me.

Thanks for the animal story

[hiddenite]

Jacques I'm going to bed just need to rest. I appreciate your support my friend.

Big hug

[Jacques]

Karen, your mother is wrong, you are not hurting the girls, if you get help you will be a better mum, yes? any help, no matter how small, this must be of benifit to the girls?

I understand Karen, it is going to be tough the next few days, i will be here for you, you will not be alone.

That is good Karen, you will be able to read my messages at least, did they say how long you will be their?

I am sorry Karen, it was silly, i know you are not in the mood for animal stories.

Karen i really hope this time is different, that you get some benifit from your stay, please remember this time i will be with you every step of the way.

[Jacques]

That is ok my Angel, you rest, i will watch over you, imagine me sitting beside you, stroking your hand, telling you things will get better.

Please be safe, i am thinking of you always my friend.  i will support you always, you are my best friend.  I only want the best for you.

Big hugs to you too my angel.

Jacques